all the sleepless night and the night you cry

haha... im damn happy, well... 1st of all, i really want to thanks my mum.. haha.. loves her lots.. my mum buy me a hp.. actually, i wanted to buy since last year when my hp like spoilt d.. but yah, tat time my mum having financial problem and i also dont dare to ask many from my mum, but the day b4 yesterday i told my mum tat i want a new hp as my old hp spoilt d, she din say much.. but just advise me nt to buy the expensive wan.. i said ok.. she buy me w910i. my favourite hp.. waakaka..i wanted it so long ago since i saw my sis using it.. hahah, so damn happy.. well, actually i wanted to chuse white colour and it cause about rm650.. but see see the grey pus pink wan its much more nicer and u just nid to add another 10bucks nie.. well, i promise tat i will take care this hp.. haha.. thks alots mumy.. =]

i skip school 2day, cos they are having gotong royong. i admit tat im lazy XD but at least i will still stay at home to finish pn.chan's homework and also clean up my room. nt dat lazy nie ryte? lols. -perasan- joyful vanguard camp is around the corner. well, as 1 of he leader, many things we need to plan and also prepare.. well, just dont know why. i feel so exicted thinking bot this camp. hahaha.. i promise, tat i will take many many picand upload in my blog.. especially with the form5. this is their last year and we as the form4's learder really hope that u guys will enjoy this camp.. haha..

-signing off-

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 9:18 PM

i saw tat person in church yesterday night. tat person sit alone.. i really feel like walking toward the person yesterday. but i know i cant, bsides im very very tired yesterday cos from my godma hse i straight away go tt.. and then from tt i straight away go church.. well, i was like half death when i reach home.. haha.. [touch wood]

i use the person as Y i saw tat person again in church i mean sunday school 2day.. i was really expecting tat Y will come to me and talk to me.. maybe i just put too much hope on Y.. i dont knw.. i really feel like crying now honestly.. i really want a answer from tat person.. why only a msg or only a word will take tat person a week?? i really dont understand.. i hate tat person alots.. well, 2day sunday class finished early cos the teachers gt meeting.. b4 going back, i went to see miss.ophelia cos i wanted to asked her bot the confirmation thing.. well, i walked slowly as i could cos i still put on hope on tat person tat the person will talk to me.. but he din. theresa told me tat Y luk at me.. i tink Y expecting me to talk 1st.. but why should Y? Y is the 1 hu should.. i started our conversation 1st many many times d. even somtimes tat person will nt reply but at least i done my job. i just dont understand.. haih.. honestly, i really fell like asking Y but i know i should nt.. i will leave the rest to the god cos i know he will arrange 4 me and he will always bless me 4 wat i did..

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 12:01 AM

back with my blog.. so long din update.. i understand why the evry form5 keep on saying tat form4 subjects is hard compare to form1, 2 n 3.. i und.. T-T.. well, maybe im nt use to the paper.. sudd change all to subjective.. aiks.. damn hard larh, especially sej.. my gosh.. i really din expect tat en. aziz will set this kind of qs.. ok forget bot the exam since it already past..

well, i have a nice time chatting with THERESA n EUNICE in the class.. we share our problems with each other cos we are facing the same problem.. its hard to understand other ppl feelings somtimes, but chatting with both n them n JOEY make me feel better.. sometimes, i really dont und.. why god will treat me lidet? izit he wants me to become tougher?? izit tis is wat he tinks tat tis way is good 4 me? izit tis is the only way? im nt blaming HIM.. i know tat wat he will always give me the best. but i just dont understand.. sometimes, when i pray, i do feel better even after tat im very very sure wat i pray wont happen, but i really hope 1 day miracle will happen.

so yah, i still put hope on the person i pray 4.. even i havent been waiting 4 the person 4 1weeek..
i will still wait 4 tat person untill 1 day when i know its the time 4 me to let go.. i promised to myself tat i will nt cry 4 tat person d.. so yah, i will be tougher..

ok lahr.. tats all 4 now.. i need to get ready jor.. im going to my godma hse today with theresa n joey.. n after tat go tt n go church so many plan 2day.. wakaka.. ok lahr.. update again nxt time.. -signing off-

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 6:07 PM

well.. as i say i wont be blogging anymore till exam over.. well just donno why i feel lyk blogging now.. haha... but im very sure that tis will be my last blog before exam..

so yah, mother's day is coming.. any presents 4 ur beloved mother? of cos i will buy a presents 4 my mum 2.. at 1st i tot of buying her a necklace but see later my mum will sure say y waste muney n bla bla.. so yah, i gave my mum rm50 bucks and asked her buy watever she wan.. that day, i went to kl , and yah.. my use the muney to buy a new handbag 4 herself ... so yah.. i planned to share muney with my sister this sunday to buy her a cake.. i also wana eat.. YUMMY!! ahaha.. u cant blame me, cos i miss the taste of a cake since after my sister bday... hmph.. nvm, im waiting 4 my birthday to come.. fai tit fai tit.. haha.. well, and to my godma, of cos i wont 4get larh.. i brought her a cross but havent blessed yet and also see larh.. 2mr go parade and find 4 her..

so yah, already 2weeeks im in the confirmation class.. well honestly, im very happy to join that class, it was nt boring at all as last time i went to the RCIT.. sien sei.. haha... and yah, joey is joining us to0.. even she havent get baptist.. really thanks to FATHER LAI.. just donnu why, im very exicted to go sunday class every sunday .. maybe sum of u all will think tat s weird bt being in tat class u really can mix with alot of ppl from different school and u can learn many many things .. i tak sabar sabar wana finished exam larh.. ARGGGGG!!!! 2 weeks man.. !! my gosh.... aiks..

and yah 2 ann, jangan worry i will always pray 4 u so that u will faster recover.. and to dat baboon ong joey.. still thanks larh 4 listening to all my problems.. all ur advise is meaningfull to me..

lastly, good luck in ur exams yah..
GAMBATEH!!!

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 2:33 AM